Ok I admit it. I created this blog to rant.
Is that a bad thing?
The back (read: boring story)
I am in a relationship. I am in love. This has being going on for over a year. Before that (right before, cough, cough), I was in a relationship that lasted almost 3 years. I am now realizing how
similar both the men in my life have been.
fyi: I am 23. Their similarities, are freaking me out. More importantly, I get mad at them for identical things, which just suggests that it is my own insecurities and
neuroses, playing out over and over.
How do I overcome this? It makes me sad that he no longer looks at me with such unconditional adoration. It makes me sad how easily I irritate him. It makes me frustrated how annoying I can be. But I just keep doing the same thing over and over....
I do think I have given him too much info. I tell him about every crazy thing that I think, which surely makes him think differently of me (wow you are not the hot smart confident woman I thought you were) and gives him the upper hand. I tell him everything. I know he does not do the same for me.
most recent "sunshine trigger"
I confess, I know his
friendster/
myspace/
facebook page and he does not know that I do.
For the most part there is nothing on there to offend. But recently:
he is going out with a male buddy of his I have never met. He is not inviting me. He has invited some other girl to go with him, an old friend of his I have also never met. He has not told me this. Last time he hung out with this gir he did not invite me.
Should I be suspicious/angry? I am,
honestly.
thoughts?
(yes I know no one reads this, but nonetheless)
